In the clear.. and ready to go!

Yay for more good news! The nurse called on Friday with my last series of blood results.  My hormone levels are in the negatives after almost 4 weeks.  With levels like this, my body has found it's way back to how it was before getting pregnant.  (other than the few pounds I put on from eating everything in sight!)  It's hard to believe it's already been almost 4 weeks since I miscarried.   Jim and I are excited to move forward and hopefully have baby news soon! :)

I miss you little baby ...

Yesterday was a pretty good day, if you don't count the phantom pregnancy symptoms or a waiting room full of cute little pregnant ladies!  

It all started when I brushed my teeth before school and I started to gag. UGH... it continues.  All morning, I felt like I needed to throw up and kept going into the bathroom just in case it really happened.  This was all way too familiar and it made me sad.  I know they are just symptoms of a stomach bug or something, but enough to remind me of what I miss.  I never thought I would miss morning sickness!!! Then, at the doctors, I had to wait a long time in a waiting room full of cute pregnant women and didn't even get my blood drawn.  Now I have to go back again today... but it's my last visit for the miscarriage.  My next visit will be for a new little joy!  

I miss you little baby.... and there isn't a second I don't think of you.  God, please bless us with a healthy baby soon. 

Had to come back ...

With all that has happened in the last few weeks, we had some positive news from the doctor on Thursday!  My hormone levels have dropped from 2,425 to 476... all the way to 18.  So basically, my body has recovered from the miscarriage quickly and is ready to move onward!!  It takes a lot longer for several women and I feel lucky to get through such a hard time a bit faster.  There's not a day that I don't think about it, but at least we are on our way to more good news soon. :)

Today was supposed to be our first appointment...

So today was the day we were anxiously waiting for... our first visit to the doctor.  It was our first visit, however, not the visit we wanted.  Last night, I knew something was wrong when I passed some tissue.  At that moment, I knew in my heart that my body rejected my Baby.  When I stop and think about it, this is a blessing because Mother Nature knew that something wasn't right with our Baby.  Today, the ultrasound showed that I did have a natural miscarriage.  The doctor seemed to think that our Baby stopped growing at about five weeks.

Our doctor is wonderful and I am so happy that I had friends refer me to him.  He really helped us see the bright side of this sad time.   We are lucky that we are able to conceive a child and will again, and soon!  

Jim and I are also lucky to have such wonderful family and friends.  It's great to know that we have a huge support system... and together we will get through our loss.

I'm going to take a break from the posts... but you will see me back on here SOON and I am looking forward to it! :)

Not the weekend I had expected ...

On Saturday afternoon, Jim and I went to the emergency room.  I had some light spotting that freaked me out, so I wanted to get checked out.  My hormone levels were high, which was a good sign but the ultrasound measured me back at 5 weeks, 2 days, which could go either way.  The doctor told us it was a "threatened miscarriage" but apparently they give every pregnant woman that diagnosis if there is any spotting involved.  

Yesterday, I had more bleeding and cramps, so it was an emotional day for me.  Tomorrow at our doctor's appointment, I will have another ultrasound done and of course more blood work.  Hopefully those hormone levels go up!!! We really want this little Johnson Baby.  Grow Baby grow!! Keep us in your prayers today and I'll keep everyone updated :)

Baby names ... already?!

So while I was at work yesterday, Jim decided to create his own list of baby names.  Not surprisingly, he had way more boy names than girl names.  

Remember, this is HIS list.... 

Boy - Colton, Walter, Alexander, Ethan, Henrik, Reese, Parker, Micah, Nash, Maynard, Wade, Dean, Elliot, Wyatt

Girl - Abigail, Mika, Paige, June, Lily, Summer, Willow

Out of these names, there are a few that I do like.... Alexander, Reese, Parker, Micah, Wade, Elliot, Wyatt, Abigail, Paige, and Colton is growing on me.... However, we have said the name Nolan for a boy for soooo long and I love Nolan Alexander.  Jim thinks it's too common now, but I still think it's a possibility... if it's a boy.  Better than Maynard, Henrik, and Dean!?!?! What was he thinking?!

Together we came up with Jett... any other ideas out there?