A Great Joy is Coming...

New Blog....up and running!

2009-09-09T18:04:00.000-07:00

Check out the new blog for Abigail. I decided to design a new blog, without changing the old one. Eventually I want to turn the old blog into a book!!

New website address... bookmark it!

http://babyabigailgrace.blogspot.com/

First Outing as a Family!

2009-09-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

Other than a few walks to Whole Foods or the AT&T store, the Johnson Family had our first big outing together on Sunday, August 30th. I first took Abigail to her first Orioles game, where I had time to catch up with some other baseball moms and share stories, while Abigail got to take in her Daddy's seventh save of the season. Go Daddy!

After the game, the Orioles hosted a Family Day for players and their families. There was tons of food, goodies for the kids, and jerseys for everyone to wear. They even had a onesie made for Abigail that has Johnson #43 on the back. It was way too big, but she will grow into it for next season! It was a fun time to just hang out, talk, and spend time together on a beautiful Sunday afternoon with such great friends. Jim and I are truly blessed to be part of such a family oriented baseball team.

Jim was so proud to show off his little girl.

Abigail didn't do much other than sleep ... maybe she'll enjoy Family Day a little more next year! :)

Sweet Baby ....

2009-09-02T15:07:00.004-07:00

Here are some latest pictures.... I promise to get better with blogging. With more sleep, I'm having more time to do it!

Abigail is such a small bundle of joy!

This is how she spent her time inside .... all curled up :)

Peaceful sleeper ...

Goodnight!

Abby likes to have her hands crossed and legs all tangled up!

She does wake up!!! And suck her thumb :)

Abigail's Birth Story

2009-09-02T13:33:00.000-07:00

It all started on Monday, August 17th. I woke up early that morning not feeling well and finding it hard to stand up straight. I was having contractions, but not that close together and had a lot of back pain. I also hadn't felt Abby move since the evening before, which really made me nervous since I knew her movement patterns so well at this point in the pregnancy. After talking to Jim, I decided to call the doctor for advice. Dr. Penn said to go ahead to the hospital, that he would meet me there to see what's going on. Jim had to head into the ballpark, so I drove to the hospital where I met my Mom.

Right away, the nurse was able to find Abigail's heartbeat and she was monitored for 20 minutes. Everything looked and sounded great! Dr. Penn then came in and I was STILL only 1 cm dilated and about 85% effaced. He said to go ahead back home and come in when the contractions or the uncomfortableness got worse. I was glad everything was okay, but shocked that this was a false alarm.

Later that afternoon, I started to feel a little better so I decided to go to the baseball game, thinking it would probably be my last game for a while. My Dad, Heather, and Emily came along and were the first ones to witness my labor pains! Throughout the whole game, I felt contractions and more pain. I was sure at this point that something was going on, but kept fighting through it... wanting to be able to say bye to Jim after the game, since he was off to Tampa to start a long, 9 day road trip.

After waiting to say my goodbye, I headed back to my parents house so I could get some sleep and hopefully feel better. At about midnight, I woke my parents up and said "It's time to go!" My Mom and Jen drove me to the hospital, where I was admitted.... I was in labor! So the second trip to the hospital in the same day.... wasn't a false alarm! Dr. Penn had me walk around and drink water for an hour straight and this just made the pain intensify. Sure enough, it put me right into active labor.

I called Jim around 1:30am, just as he arrived in Tampa to tell him he needed to get a flight back that we were having a baby!! He got a flight out at 5:30 am. While waiting for things to progress, I was given some sleeping medication that made me pretty silly. I just remember my Mom laughing as I was falling asleep. Who knows what I was saying to her or the nurse, but THANK YOU.... I couldn't feel the pain and I got some rest before it all began.

I woke up that morning on August 18th and things started to progress on their own. However, not at a fast pace. Dr. Penn had to leave and Dr. Keith was taking over his shift. I had never met this doctor so it was awkward at first, but she was wonderful! My water was then broken and I was put on petocin to speed things along. I received the epidural early on ... thanks to my low pain tolerance! Jim arrived at the hospital around noon, in plenty of time!

Over the next several hours, Jim stayed by my side and helped me get through the pain. He did a wonderful job. At 4:15 pm Dr. Keith said it was time to start pushing and that Abigail was right there. She didn't think it would take as long as it did... but almost 3 hours later, at 6:43 pm, little Abigail Grace was born! What a special moment to share with Jim. We both shed some tears and were amazed that we could bring this sweet little baby into this world. I was very thankful to have the nurse that I did. She sweat just as much as I did (the air conditioner shut off halfway through), pushed everytime I pushed, and she actually said it best herself... When my family came in to see us, she said "We all had a baby in here tonight!"

Abigail was then taken to the NICU to check on some things. She was very pale and lethargic when she was first born. The doctors just wanted to make sure things were okay. Two hours later, she was brought back to us with news that everything was fine!

Welcome to the World sweet Abigail Grace!

2009-08-21T11:43:00.000-07:00

There will be so much to write about the birth of our beautiful baby. However, that will have to wait, as I'm about to take a quick nap while Abby is off in dreamland. Gotta get some rest sometime...... Here are just a few pictures already taken of the baby! More to come soon...

Introducing Abigail Grace Johnson

Born on August 18, 2009 at 6:43 p.m.

6 pounds 1 ounce; 19 inches

Abigail has Daddy's long toes!

The most incredible moment of my life. First family picture moments after birth.

Proud parents right after birth.

Our little peanut ready to go home from the hospital. Look at all the hair :)

Just checking in ...

2009-08-15T11:37:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

Here we are.... full term at 37 weeks! I can't believe you've gone from the size of a poppy seed to the size (weight) of a watermelon. You've come a long way in preparing for your life outside the womb.

I went to the doctors on Wednesday, at exactly 37 weeks and no progress had been made since the week before. I am still 1 cm dilated and 80% effaced, which still can change quickly or take a few weeks. We'll wait for you to decide when the time is right! I have been feeling the same since last week, a lot of pressure and cramping, more and more Braxton Hicks contractions. Just waiting for the real deal .... Earlier this week, I treated myself to a wonderful pedicure. It felt great to sit back and relax and now my feet are ready for delivery! Daddy said it was a good idea for me to get pampered a bit, I think partially so he didn't have to do it, although he did say he would! Brownie points, either way. It must have been a good pedicure too because the first thing the doctor noticed this week was my toes!! :)

Daddy leaves on Tuesday for a long road trip. I hope you stay settled a little longer so he will be home when you decide to make your way into this world. I pray that if he is away, he has enough time to get back home to us.

Our whole family, lots of friends, and especially me and Daddy are so anxious and excited to meet you. Stay healthy and strong... we'll see you soon!

Love,

Mommy

Did I hear you right doc??

2009-08-05T18:48:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

Here we are at 36 weeks.... and you may be ready to make your grand entrance into this world! Lately I have been feeling cramping and a lot of pressure as you push your way down. At our appointment today, the doctor said I was 1 cm dilated and 80% effaced. Yikes! I certainly didn't expect to hear this news, but was excited of course! Dr. Edwards said some women stay this way for a few weeks, while others progress a lot faster. She did say it would be a good idea to pack my hospital bag and to start watching for certain signs that may indicate active labor. She also said you have dropped a lot and that your head is very low. With my size and your position, Dr. Edwards doesn't think it will be too long - she said you will be here before my due date!! Yay! I have also lost two pounds since my last visit, which I have come to find happens often before your delivery.

I will go back to the doctors a week from today and we will check the progress and possibly schedule an induction so that we can be sure Daddy will be in town. We are so very anxious to meet you and hopefully it will be soon! Just stay in there a while longer little one, Daddy will be home from Toronto Sunday night. Mommy and Daddy want to be able to meet you together. :)

Love,

Mommy

Last but not least!

2009-08-05T18:23:00.000-07:00

On Monday night, Abigail and I had our last shower! Jim and I are truly blessed to be part of such a wonderful baseball family. I couldn't believe all the wonderful food, decorations, and generous gifts we received. It was such a fun time... great timing since the guys were on the road. The ladies definitely deserved a girls night in! :) Here are some pics taken from the evening.

Wow... so generous. Love the clothesline in the back ...

Tara did such a good job!

Me, Baubi, Diana, Cortney & Hannah

Great time with great friends! :)

5 weeks ... 5 weeks!

2009-07-29T18:51:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

I still cannot believe I am 35 weeks today! You are over five pounds now, leaving you with even less space to move around. That doesn't mean I don't feel you though, you are good at letting me know you are safe and snug. Your kidneys are completely developed now and your liver is processing some waste products. Physical development is complete at this point, so from here on out, you are just gaining weight ... which will show on your Mommy! Lucky me! :)

It seems as though I've come back to the tired phase where I get worn out easily. I'm resting as much as I can, whenever I can! As much as I don't want to admit it, some days my feet have been swollen and my rings are getting tight! Uh-oh!! Heartburn is getting worse and worse, but Tums still help ease that annoyance. I've been noticing more Braxton Hicks contractions, usually when I've been walking a lot or on my feet for a long period of time. When I lay down or rest, they subside... so all is good!

I have definitely gone into the "nesting" phase too. I have organized and reorganized your closet about twenty times and I have one more shower to go, so I'm not done yet! I just love looking through your clothes, toys, blankets.... anything. I can't stop smiling whenever I'm going through your things.

It's amazing to think we have come this far and with each day that passes I get more and more excited to meet you and hold you in my arms. Keep growing strong and healthy little one. Daddy and I love you!

Love,

Mommy

Here are some pictures to show one of my "nesting" projects. I made dividers for Abigail's closet. Why do I need them? Who knows, but they are cute!

Looks just like a mini boutique in Abby's closet....

6 weeks, really?!

2009-07-23T16:52:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

Where is the time going? I can't believe I am 34 weeks, 1 day. 6 weeks to go sounds like nothing! You are now just over 19 inches long and weigh almost 5 pounds. Your hair continues to get longer and thicker and you have shed most of the lanugo that was covering your body for protection. Fingernails have now grown over your fingertips, so be careful not to scratch yourself!

I'm starting to feel more and more pregnant each day. You are moving all around, kicking my ribs and bladder, and I'm just now beginning to feel your weight pushing down. I am not complaining though ... not yet. I'm still having the daily heartburn, leg cramps, and numbness in my right leg when I move too quickly, walk a lot, or bend down. Like the doctor said before, it's not normal, but it's common. I guess you like to sit on a nerve that triggers my leg to feel asleep!

Mommy and Daddy had a busy weekend in New York City. I left on Sunday night, by train and got home last night. I saw your Daddy play in the new Yankee stadium, which was exciting ... although we didn't win a game while we were there. Your favorite part of the trip was the Lion King Musical on Broadway. I have never felt you move around as much as you did during this show. It was nonstop dancing, kicking, moving from start to finish. Did you like the loud music? I plan on buying the Lion King Soundtrack so you can listen to it along with Mommy!

Tomorrow, I have our next check-up so I can see what's going on with you. Keep growing strong and healthy for us and we'll be seeing you soon. I'm going to go take my vitamin, drink some water, and rest up for you. Goodnight!

Love,

Mommy

Do dogs know?

2009-07-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

For the past month or so, Max has become super protective and cuddly with his Mommy. Yes, that would be me. I couldn't help but to take a picture of Max laying on my baby bump tonight. It was the sweetest thing!! I really think he knows something is going on, maybe he doesn't know what exactly, but he knows something is changing. He loves his baby sister already! Maybe we should get Max this shirt ..... what do you think?!

Dear Baby Honeydew...

2009-07-16T13:18:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

33 weeks yesterday.... 7 weeks to go! During the eighth month of pregnancy, you are about the size of a honeydew. You weigh about 4.4 pounds now and measure about 19.4 inches in total length. With the exception of crying, you are capable of doing everything that a newborn baby will do. You are in birth position already, as we saw last week in your ultrasound.

I still feel you kicking and moving all around. It's starting to get more uncomfortable at times as you keep growing. Heartburn and back pain are the biggest symptoms for me now. Lately, my right leg has been falling asleep if I stand up or bend down too quickly. I talked to my doctor about this and was assured that although it's not normal, it's not uncommon.

I am excited to see you again tomorrow at our follow-up 4D ultrasound. I hope this time we are able to get some clearer shots, but we'll see. I will be happy to see you no matter what! Keep growing strong and healthy little one ... Mommy and Daddy are constantly getting things ready for your arrival! :)

Love,

Mommy

Abigail's Shower

2009-07-16T12:46:00.000-07:00

This past Sunday, Abigail and I had our second shower. It was thrown by my Aunt Kay, sisters Jen and Heather, and niece Emily. Everything was beautiful... the decorations, the food arrangements, the cake, and all the lovely gifts!

We had a fun time playing shower games including unscrambling baby items or phrases and tasting baby food to guess what flavor. I'm thinking about making my own baby food after tasting some of those yucky flavors! Everyone was also given a clothespin at the start of the shower and whenever someone said the word "baby" you got to take their clothespins. At the end, the person with the most won a prize. Needless to say, my clothespins were gone really fast!

Abigail received a lot of gifts and will be one very well-dressed baby!! From cute clothes, socks, books, toys, crib sheets, diapers.... well you name it, we got it!! I'm very thankful to be such a part of such a thoughtful and caring family.

Here are just a few pictures to highlight the day. If you are on Facebook, check out even more! :)

Stephanie, Gracie, Emily, Heather, me, Jen, and Mama

Diaper Cake created by my sister Jen! Impressive!

Favors ... tiny footprint soaps

Fruit Baby Carriage

Yummy Cake!

Gram and Me :)

Abigail ... 32 weeks 2 days! :)

2009-07-10T10:56:00.001-07:00

It was such a neat experience to see baby Abby this far along in the pregnancy. It's so amazing what technology can do these days! Jen, Heather, Justin, and Emily went with me and Jim to see our little girl in action. We went to Baby to Be Imaging in Annapolis, where friends of ours had a great experience with their little boy.

Abigail proved to be quite cramped inside, with not much room to move around. She loves her hands and had them on her face or in her mouth the whole time!! Shy or just playing peek-a-boo with us, she wasn't very cooperative, but we still got some good photos. It was great to see her healthy heart fluttering away, her eyes wide open, yawning, and stretching.

Since Abby was playing hide-and-seek most of the time, we were invited back next week to see if we can get some clearer shots. Hopefully my placenta won't be in the way and she will take those hands away!! I'm just excited to get to see her again... I'll take it! More pics to come....

32 weeks... 8 to go!

2009-07-08T14:56:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby Abigail,

You are steadily growing and each day I am amazed when I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror. Sometimes it just makes me laugh... I'm growing right along with you! At this stage, your toenails and fingernails have formed and you now have real hair. I often think about what color hair and how much hair you will have when you are born. We'll see!

Now that you are growing so quickly, you are losing space to squirm all around. However, I am able to feel you more and more because of this. I'm still getting those kicks in the ribs and some uncomfortable pressure off and on. I enjoy and love every minute of this. It's still my favorite part of pregnancy and every time I feel you, I am reminded that in just eight or so weeks, I will be able to hold this precious little one that has been growing inside me for so long.

I continue to have heartburn.... it never goes away! My lower back has been sore and I've found that swimming helps a great deal. So not only am I getting some exercise, but it really helps ease the pain. I've been a bit tired lately and my sleep at night isn't as good as it used to be. It seems that you like to move all around during my sleep time!

Daddy comes home tonight from Seattle and we have a busy, but fun week ahead of us. Tomorrow we have our 32 week check-up and a tour of the hospital! If reality hasn't set in that I'm going to be delivering a baby soon, it will hit tomorrow for sure. :) On Friday, we will get to see you in 4D!!! Aunt Jen, Aunt Heather, and your cousin Emily are going along so they can share in this special moment with us. Grandad and Grandma Rowland want to wait and see you for the first time when you are born... I guess they are looking forward to that surprise! Me, on the other hand, have been counting down the days for this moment for a while now!

Keep growing strong and healthy for us ... Grandad Rowland already says you are and jokes with me that you are going to be a 12 pound baby. No way Grandad! :)

Love,

Mommy

Here are pictures of Jim's Father's Day gift. Abby will be so cute dressed in Orioles gear at a game this September! :) The bow was made by a friend of mine - check out her site. www.luxbabies.com !!

9 weeks to go!

2009-07-01T20:03:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

You must have had a growth spurt this week because Mommy's belly is really starting to show it! At 31 weeks, you are about 18 inches long and weigh about 3.5 pounds! The air sacs and branches in your lungs are now able to inflate, allowing you to take in air and breathe properly. This is a huge milestone for you!

I have been feeling you move around a lot lately, sometimes it can be uncomfortable for me. Last night, you kept me awake because you were moving so much. Daddy felt you and was shocked at how strong you are!! My back has been hurting a bit, but usually only when I've been on my feet for too long. I've noticed a few Braxton Hicks contractions, or at least what I think are these "practice" contractions. They don't last long and I haven't had enough to be concerned. My body is just preparing for what is yet to come!

Daddy left today for a West Coast road trip. It was a bit hard to say goodbye even though he's only gone a week. I imagine it will get harder and harder when he goes on road trips because I get nervous that something will happen when he's away. Daddy has a way to keep me calm and free of any stress!

Keep growing strong and healthy little one... we will be seeing you in 9 days! Your family is very excited to see what you are up to inside Mommy's belly. I hope you heard Daddy and I tell you this today.... WE LOVE YOU!

Love,

Mommy

30 weeks today ... 10 weeks to go!

2009-06-24T12:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

You are getting bigger by the week! At this point, you weigh almost 3 pounds and measure about 15.7 inches long. As the weeks go on, you are taking up more room and it's starting to really show on Mommy. Everyone keeps saying how tiny I am, but in these last weeks, it is common to gain a pound a week. Hopefully I can stick to that and not much more!!

Lately I have been feeling pregnant... finally, right?! Sometimes my stomach feels so tight like there is just no more room to grow! My feet have been swollen at night a few times, but not too bad.... not yet. Heartburn continues to be my biggest problem, with whatever I eat, but I've learned to take Tums with me wherever I go.

Feeling you move around is wonderful and I enjoy this part of my pregnancy so much. At night before I go to sleep, you move so much and I feel as if it's our bonding time together. I just lay there and think about you and what I think you will be like when you enter this world. Sometimes you kick me right under my ribs... that isn't so comfortable, so maybe you could ease up a bit over in that area! :)

Keep growing strong and healthy Baby Abby. Your family loves you so much. Daddy is already buying you cute little clothes and toys. He can't wait to meet his little "Daddy's girl."

Love,

Mommy

Family Shot ... taken in the bullpen at Camden Yards. Next time Abby will be in the picture with us (instead of in Mommy's belly!) :-)

Dear Baby Squash...

2009-06-17T13:25:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby Abigail,

29 weeks today! In the seventh month of pregnancy, your five senses are all functional and your brain and nervous system are going through major developments. Throughout this month, you will be about the size of a squash, about 15.2 to 16.7 inches and will weigh between 2.5 and 3.8 pounds. You will be almost 4 pounds when we reach the eighth month of pregnancy... wow!

We had a doctors appointment (at our new practice) today to see how you were doing and the doctor was very pleased with everything. Your heartbeat was strong and always makes me smile at such a beautiful sound. I am going to start taking an additional iron supplement since I don't seem to be getting enough in my diet.

You have been quite the active little baby lately and I enjoy every second. It is great to see and feel my belly move all around. Every now and then, I feel you close to my ribs which is a bit uncomfortable! Daddy felt you for the first time last week ... what a special moment for us to share. Since then, his hands move towards my belly a lot and he's always asking about you... if you are napping or moving around. :)

I've been feeling good lately. Daddy had to get a massage for his back and shoulder the other day, so he was thoughtful enough to have one set up for me as well. It was wonderful and really helped me with my lower back pain and leg cramps. Yay Daddy! Now if I could just figure out what foods cause my heartburn and constipation, things will be going great! I can never win with either of these symptoms!!! Ugh.

Keep growing strong and healthy little one... Max is doing his job as a big brother (yes, I know he's a dog) to protect you. He follows me around and lays with me all the time. He is going to love having a little girl to play with!! :)

Love,

Mommy

Here is the dress you will wear home from the hospital... it's so ADORABLE!! :)

A day to be remembered....

2009-06-11T11:09:00.000-07:00

Today would have been our due date for our first baby. It seems crazy to think that we could have a little one of our own right at this moment. However, it is such a blessing that a new little miracle came into our lives so soon after our miscarriage. We are looking forward to meeting and holding you Abigail - our little Christmas Miracle! :)

28 weeks!!

2009-06-11T07:36:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

Here we are at 28 weeks! A lot has been changing over the last few weeks. We are now in Baltimore with Daddy and Max, spending some time together, which has been really enjoyable. I've also gotten to spend some time with family and look forward to being here for the rest of the summer. It's great!

You are growing, growing, and growing some more! You are measuring about 14.8 inches from the top of your head to your heels and weigh about 2.25 pounds. At this stage, you can blink your eyes, which now have lashes and your eyesight is developing.

I got my results back from the glucose screening and all is well. No worries with gestational diabetes thankfully. (and no more drinking that yucky, sugary stuff!!) Blood results still show that I'm a bit anemic, so I'm trying to fit more iron into my diet.

I've been feeling great lately, feeling you kick and dance around. Daddy felt you our first night together, but hasn't had any luck sense. Whenever I feel you, I quickly tell him to put his hand on my belly... but then you stop moving!! Daddy says it's okay because he wants you to be a sleeping baby! :) (sleeping patterns are beginning to develop already) He asked the other day if you knew his voice by now and I know you do. It's great having Daddy around, isn't it?! Last night was the first night, I didn't feel too well. I had leg cramps throughout the night, shoulder pain, and was short of breath. It really scared me but laying down helped and this morning I feel fine. I can feel you moving around as I type. :)

Keep growing strong and healthy little one. Daddy and I are so excited to meet you ... and Max too. I truly believe that he knows we are about to have a new addition to our family!!

Love,

Mommy

27 Week Letter ... late again!

2009-06-04T06:58:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

I have been so busy these last few days, it's been crazy! I packed up my classroom, packed the things you and I would need, and then drove about 17 hours to Maryland. Thanks to Granddad and Uncle Donnie, it made the trip a lot easier for me! Your Daddy is so excited to see us and of course Max too! Seeing family has also been so wonderful... it feels good to be back here so all of the family can experience this pregnancy right along with me!

It is so exciting to think I am in the third trimester now and the days are going to start flying by, not like they haven't already. You will be growing a lot in this last trimester (you are already just over 2 pounds!) and your brain, liver, and immune system are continuing to develop each day. Your lungs are still immature, but would be capable of functioning in the outside world.

Feeling you move around and kick has been the most amazing part of this pregnancy. I cannot wait to start sharing these moments with your Daddy. It's going to be so special for us to be together during these times.

Keep growing strong and healthy little one. We'll be seeing you in just a few weeks when we have another ultrasound done. Daddy and I love you more and more each day.

Love,

Mommy

Dear Baby Eggplant...

2009-05-28T16:52:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

With each day that passes, I am amazed at how fast this pregnancy seems to be moving along. At 26 weeks, you are still about the size of an eggplant, measuring about 14 inches from head to heel and weighing almost 2 pounds! I think you are having a growth spurt right now since I gained more weight this week than usual!! After having your eyelids shut for quite some time, they will begin to open this week. Blood vessels are starting to develop in your lungs, making your blood circulation completely functional at this point.

I had a doctor's appointment on Tuesday, which was my last appointment with Dr. Towsley. It's sad to think he won't be the one to deliver you, but we will soon be taken care of by another great doctor in Maryland. Dr. Towsley has assured me he won't be retiring for a while and is willing to deliver a whole baseball team for us. He's too funny. At this appointment, I had the glucose screening done for gestational diabetes. I'm hoping I passed because I would dread going back and drinking that straight sugar again. YUCK! Your heart was fluttering away with a healthy heartbeat and a couple kicks in between. It was neat to hear that on the doppler. I have now gained a total of 16 pounds ... whoa! I'm trying to watch what I eat a little better, although the doc says I'm right where I should be for this stage of pregnancy... if not a bit under. Good news!

Well I've had a long day and another few long days ahead. I'm getting your things packed little girl, so we can head to Maryland in just a few days. I look forward to sharing the newest parts of pregnancy with your Daddy. He will love to feel and see you move around. Keep growing strong and healthy Abby!

Love,

Mommy

Nursery... DONE!!

2009-05-23T15:15:00.000-07:00

Let me just say... I am in love with Abby's nursery. It is absolutely adorable!! Just a bit of background first.... Last year, I taught a student whose mom is an artist. Lisa has done tons of murals and paintings around Sarasota and is truly talented. Last year, she surprised me with a wooden painted giraffe for my classroom. It's huge and beautiful and every morning stands on the boardwalk welcoming my kids into class. Of course after seeing her work in person, I told her that when a little one comes along, I would love to have her do work for the nursery. Sure enough, she was one of the first people I called when I knew we were having a little girl. Lisa matched the flowers and butterflies perfectly to the bedding and theme of the room. It is like a little garden or meadow for Abby to play in! Take a look!

Dear Baby Eggplant...

2009-05-20T16:24:00.001-07:00

Dear Abigail,

At week 25, you've grown from the size of a papaya to the size of an eggplant! You are probably measuring in between 13 and 15 inches long already, weighing between 1.5 and 2.2 pounds! Wow baby! Around this time, you are beginning to do a lot more with those tiny fingers of yours and can even make a fist. Soon you will be able to touch and hold your own feet! It's hard to believe that you are already preferring either your right or left hand when you use your fingers. Will you be a righty? I think so.

I have been continuing to feel great and have been feeling you move all around. I feel you the most as I'm waking up in the morning, on my car ride home from school, and when I'm starting to relax for the night... around 9 or so. You already have a sleeping pattern and so far, it hasn't been keeping me up at night. That's a good sign!

I am so excited to see Daddy in just a few weeks. I am really looking forward to him being able to feel you move. He might even be able to hear your heartbeat if he rests his ear on my belly in just the right place. You aren't even here yet, but I can already tell you will be Daddy's little girl. He just sent a package with lots of cute outfits from Gymboree for you. Such adorable dresses, shirts, skirts, with matching headband, bib, and sandals. Daddy even said more was on the way. He is spoiling us! :)

With each passing day, I get more and more anxious to meet you Abby. I keep wondering what you will be like and how you will look. Keep growing strong and healthy little one!

Love,

Mommy

Uh oh- what happened?!

2009-05-20T16:17:00.000-07:00

Here is a funny (or not so funny) pregnancy story of the week. On Monday, I wore my comfy Old Navy maternity jeans to school, which I have worn a handful of times already. I was in the middle of teaching Reading when I bent over and felt a little rip. So I reached to the back of my jeans, where the belly band meets the jeans and sure enough, not just a little rip.... no.... The band had completely detached from the jeans!!! I could feel underwear!!! It wasn't a big deal since I had a longer shirt on, but it surely made me think.... is my butt really getting that big, or are the jeans just made poorly?!?! Hoping they were just made poorly, I headed to Old Navy yesterday to exchange the jeans and just in case I got the next size up. Oh boy - here we go!

Abigail's First Shower

2009-05-15T18:17:00.000-07:00

Abigail's first shower was wonderful. I am so blessed to work at a school with such great friends... it's really just one BIG family! Here are a few pictures to capture the day!

The fabulous third grade team! I will really miss them next year.... thank you ALL so much for EVERYTHING!!!

Adorable diaper cake centerpieces made by Kirsten. So creative!

The cake sums it up perfectly. Can't wait to meet you Abby :)

Diaper Wreath created by Shannon ... How will I ever be able to take it apart? It's too cute!

Vera Bradley adds life to any party! I love my new diaper bag!

Kirsten had me fooled... I didn't think I was getting this gift!

"What a Mommy Should Always Do. What a Mommy

Should Never Do."

Written by Candice's Class - PRICELESS

Some of my favorite pages from the book ...

According to Candice... "Nice polish. Ankles not swollen." I guess this is a good thing!

24 Week Letter.. a day late...

2009-05-14T17:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

The last week has been absolutely amazing. Everyone kept telling me that feeling you move would be such an incredible experience. I knew it would be and had been anticipating it for a while now. However, what I didn't know was how much of a bond would form so quickly. I'm not sure how to put it into words... it's that special! I just feel so close with you now and whenever I feel you move around, I know you are safe and sound. I have also been seeing my belly move around, which is completely fascinating!! When I'm relaxing at night and begin to feel you move around, I just stare down at my belly, trying not to blink. I love it!

Your brain is growing quickly now and your taste buds are continuing to develop. Your lungs are developing branches of the respiratory tree as well as cells that will help your air sacs inflate once you enter the outside world. You are quite long and lanky now, about the length of corn on the cob. Soon, you will gain more weight to become more proportional. Reaching 24 weeks is a huge milestone... viability! If you were to be born now, there is a good chance that you would survive.

Yesterday was a special day for Mommy. The Gocio family held a wonderful baby shower in your honor, hosted by the wonderful third grade team! It was perfect and you received so many nice gifts that will come in handy once you are here. More to come on the shower in another post!!

I have been feeling great lately... just a bit tired. Maybe the exhaustion is coming back, but hopefully it's just a busy time of the year. There is a lot going on right now and soon I will have all summer to relax. I'm looking forward to a summer in Baltimore so Daddy can finally enjoy parts of the pregnancy like I have been. I know he's looking forward to seeing you dance around in my belly. Keep growing strong and healthy little one... We love you!

Love,

Mommy

Happy Mother's Day!

2009-05-10T12:45:00.000-07:00

I've been told that today is my first Mother's Day since I am a Mommy-To-Be. I honestly didn't expect to get so many cards from family and friends so it was extra special to be thought of on this day! It's been a great weekend and my Dad and I have been hard at work in the nursery. Everything is done and ready to go except for the three dimensional wooden flowers and butterflies that will be added after they are painted and installed by Lisa. Take a look at the latest photos of Baby Abigail's nursery... it's beautiful!

Abigail's name above her crib. I painted the letters and hung them up with mini clothespins to give it a look of a clothesline.

A letter up close with the mini clothespins. Aren't they so dainty?!

I decided to get the matching panels for the valance. It gives it a more finished look!

Dad's idea to use the butterflies I painted as tie back hooks for the curtains.

Pictures above the dresser.

Up close shot of the ribbon holding the pictures in place. Dad's addition... the mini clothespins again. I love them! :)

Dear Baby Papaya...

2009-05-06T16:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

At 23 weeks, you are still just about the size of a papaya.... maybe a little bigger since last week. You are weighing about one pound and about the size of a small baby doll. You are looking very human at this stage, with a face and body that look very similar to a newborn. This makes me more excited to see you again in just a few weeks! Daddy is going to be amazed to see how much you have changed since he last saw you at just 9 weeks.

I have been feeling great lately and really enjoy every minute of being pregnant with you. Feeling you for the first time last week was so amazing. Since then, I have been able to feel you a few times throughout the day, but mostly at night when I sit down to relax. Every time I feel you, I just think about what a miracle this is!

Daddy and I got to spend some time together on Monday and Tuesday of this week since he was in Tampa playing the Rays. It was a short visit, but just what we needed. I saw Daddy before the game started on Monday for just a quick hello. This was the first time I had seen him in about four weeks. As I made my way down to the dugout for a hug, Daddy just patted his belly and whispered, "Look at that thing!" It was really neat to see his reaction, since I have grown a lot since early April. He even remembered Mother's Day and surprised me with a few Pandora charms for my bracelet. You will soon find out what I've known for a while now, Daddy truly is the best husband.... and he will be the best father!

Keep growing strong and healthy for us little one. I'm off to eat some brownies that I've been wanting for the past three days! :)

Love,

Mommy

P.S. Here is the latest picture of Mommy and Daddy.... and you....

What's new?

2009-05-03T18:47:00.000-07:00

Last Thursday, I had my 22 week appointment with Dr. Towsley. Everything was great... healthy, beautiful heartbeat and I was measuring right on track. I have gained four pounds since my last appointment (April 2) and ten pounds total. From what I hear, that seems to be the right timeline with weight gain. Hopefully I can maintain a slow, steady gain! My next appointment will be May 26th and will get to see little Abigail again! :)

I've been working on painting Abigail's name letters and a few butterflies for her room. The butterflies that I painted are done and match the nursery decor. I'm not an artist by any means but I tried my best! I think I will put the butterflies on the beginning and end of the ribbon that will hold her name. Once I finish the letters, I will lay it all out and see what looks best!

Dear Baby Papaya...

2009-04-29T19:34:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

I am so excited to have my 22 week appointment tomorrow. I can't wait to hear that strong little heartbeat again ... it's such a beautiful sound. It will be interesting to see how much weight I've gained, although I don't think it's too much.... yet. We'll see!

Your sweet face is fully formed now and you have developed your own sleep cycles. It's amazing to think that your senses are developing daily too. Touch is one of the first senses that matures and you will be able to feel your arms and legs or a touch across your face. I have been touching my belly a lot, hoping that it makes you feel safe.

I have been feeling great, although losing my energy again. It seems to come and go in waves. Heartburn is still my biggest symptom. I get it everyday, no matter what I eat. Weird! I've had some round ligament pain this week so I know my body is busily preparing to make room for your growing body. I am almost sure I felt you tonight on and off for about thirty minutes. It's definitely a neat and different sensation! I love it!

Today my students were writing letters to their pen pals and a lot of them shared my special news with their friends. I always preview the letters before I send them off just to make sure they don't say anything unacceptable and one letter really got to me. One of my girls wrote, "My teacher is having a baby girl and her name is going to be Abigail Johnson. She is going to be sweet just like her Mommy." Let's just say the waterworks started there.

Well little Abby, I can't wait to hear more things about you tomorrow. Keep growing strong and healthy. Daddy and I love you very much!

Love,

Mommy

Abigail's Nursery

2009-04-26T18:44:00.000-07:00

Here are a few pictures of Abigail's Nursery... a lot more to do, but a lot has been done! I'm having so much fun putting it all together. I still have her letters to hang above the crib, mobile to attach, and a set of 3 matching embroidered pictures to hang. I'm also having some three dimensional wallflowers being created by a very talented artist to go against the walls to make the room look like a garden or meadow. She will also be creating butterflies to go on the slanted wall above the crib. It's going to be so cute!

Bedding up close.... Abigail's name will be on a clothesline above the crib.

Valance .... debating whether or not to get the matching curtains.

I loved this lamp base and my Dad picked out the petite little shade!

Lit up at night ... you can't see but the nightlight matches everything too!!

Dear Baby Cantaloupe...

2009-04-22T17:30:00.000-07:00

Dear Abigail,

I can't believe how fast time is flying by. At 21 weeks, you are about the size of a cantaloupe. It must be a smaller one though because I don't feel like I have enough space for that! You are about 10.5 inches long and weigh 3/4 of a pound. I am starting to show more and it is evident now that I am pregnant and not just eating too much pizza. Yesterday I took Max to the vet to get him checked out and one of the doctors said, "You must be due close to my wife." I guess I can't hide it anymore!

Not much new is going on with you this week, other than your constant growing. You are starting to take in several ounces of amniotic fluid each day and your taste buds are actually working now. Studies show that after birth, babies are most interested in what they tasted through amniotic fluid. I guess I really need to start watching what I'm eating. I want you to enjoy a lot of different foods when you get older!

Mommy has been feeling great lately. Heartburn hasn't been as bad and morning sickness has been minimal. I haven't gotten sick in more than two weeks, so it was quite the surprise to find myself sick this morning. Who knows.... I guess all the books weren't kidding when they said symptoms will come and go!

I'm looking forward to putting your nursery together in the upcoming weeks. I LOVE sitting in your room in our glider just thinking of what it will be like once you are here. Keep growing strong and healthy little lady. :)

Love,

Mommy

Decisions, decisions.....

2009-04-20T17:18:00.001-07:00

After thinking about several names, Jim and I have decided on Abigail for our baby girl. It's a name that we both love and think it's classic and simple. The more I call her Abigail, or Abby for short, the more it just feels like it couldn't be any other name. It just fits! We are still working on the middle name... it's down to two choices. Grace or Leigh. What do you think?

I have also ordered different bedding since the original bedding I ordered now has a delay in production ... just my luck! I didn't want to wait until the end of June to get it, so I found another bedding set, which I actually think I like more. It's definitely more girly but very dainty for our little girl. I think Abigail will love it! :) Take a look for yourself...

"Clothesline" bedding by Kids Line (Carter's)

Just some of the matching coordinates for the nursery :)

Dear Baby Banana...

2009-04-16T18:09:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby Girl,

Here we are at 20 weeks... halfway through our pregnancy!! (a day late writing to you) WOW, what a HUGE milestone. I can't even begin to explain to you how Daddy's and my life has changed since this journey began. With each day that passes, more excitement fills our hearts and makes us so eager to meet you. Daddy was in Texas earlier this week and bought you pink John Deere cowboy boots. He says you'll be able to wear them when you are 2 or 3. Granddad Rowland will LOVE these boots!

By now, you weigh about 10.5 ounces and are about 6.5 inches long from head to bottom (the length of a banana). From head to heel, you are about 10 inches long! You are swallowing a lot more these days, which is good practice for that little digestive system of yours.

I've still been having heartburn after I eat and lately have been getting leg cramps, especially in my sleep. Overall, I'm feeling great and feeling more energized. When I was at one of Daddy's games last week, I thought I felt you move. It all happened so quickly that I didn't really think anything of it. Just two nights ago, I felt the same sensation. It was truly amazing! I'm not sure how to describe the feeling, it was almost like a fish flopping out of the water and back in. Weird, but cool. Keep moving around in there... now I want to feel even more!

I really have to get some rest now. My body is good at telling me when enough is enough! Keep growing strong and healthy little one.... sleep tight!

Love,

Mommy

Say Cheese!

2009-04-13T18:25:00.000-07:00

Here are just a few of the latest pictures of our baby girl. Just when the ultrasound tech would get a good shot, she would move around making the picture come out blurry. At least I know she has plenty of room to move around! :)

18 weeks 1 day

The answer in the envelope.... "It's a girl!"

10 tiny toes kicking all around :) Picture on the right is a bit more clear...

Hand up to her mouth here... so cute.

Facial profile... she was all curled up at first, then stretched out for us.

We need a name ...

2009-04-12T18:00:00.000-07:00

After much thought about names over the past week, Jim and I are thinking about the name Abigail for our baby girl. We are trying to choose a middle name, which isn't as easy!! Here is a website where you can vote on your favorite name combination! Please help us by clicking on the baby names icon to the right. Thank you! :)

Dear Baby Mango...

2009-04-09T06:35:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby Girl,

Your Daddy and I are very excited to know that we are going to have a sweet, little girl to add to our family! Knowing this has made things seem so real and we are already thinking ahead to what your nursery will look like, the little outfits you will wear, and possible names for you. So fun!

The development of your fetal brain is continuing to grow and it was neat to see the different parts of your brain at our last appointment. Your kidneys are fully functioning and producing urine, which you pass into the amniotic fluid. You are now protected by Vernix, a milky white coating. This coating prevents your skin from becoming pickled inside the amniotic fluid.

I'm starting to feel great! At 19 weeks, I have gotten a lot of my energy back... I was even up until midnight last night, an hour I haven't seen in months! I've had some pinching and pulling sensations lately, so I know I'm making room for you as you grow. (and it's starting to show!) Heartburn comes and goes, but not too bad, especially when I have my Tums nearby!

Keep growing strong and healthy Baby Girl, it was wonderful to see you last week. You looked like you were having fun and moving all around. I just wish you would let me know how much fun you are having in there.... I want to feel you move!!! :-)

Love,

Mommy

One more thing .... Daddy and I made our second big purchase for you (other than nursery furniture). I hope you like your new bedding!!

Love Bird pattern by Bananafish

Joining Team Pink!

2009-04-07T12:56:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe how much will power I had from Thursday until Sunday. I wanted to tear into that envelope so bad, but I remained strong and waited until Jim and I were together. I knew it would be a special moment that we both wanted to share. We didn't really decide when to do it on Sunday because my parents were with us, Jim's parents were with us, my sister, and my uncle. We had a busy day of putting together furniture for our new condo in Baltimore. As impatient as I was, I didn't say anything to Jim and figured when the time was right, we would open the envelope.

Finally, a few hours after working in our condo, Jim says, "so do you want to find out what the kid is?!" Nice way of putting it, but YES I was ready to know! The two of us went into our bedroom and opened the envelope together. It was great.... I just had a feeling we would be joining Team Pink! After a few minutes, we shared the news with our family. It was so exciting!! A lot to look forward to now... shopping, baby names, and nursery decor.

Baby Girl also received presents that Carol sent along on my trip for us to open after the envelope. It was two adorable GIRL outfits. After going with me to my 13 week ultrasound, she recognized that our little one was indeed a little girl. I think she proved everyone wrong that she is able to keep secrets and GOOD ones at that!

Baby Boy? Baby Girl?

2009-04-02T18:36:00.000-07:00

After a much anticipated doctor's appointment today, I am left with even more anticipation waiting for Sunday to come! Today was the BIG ultrasound and luckily the ultrasound technician was able to see if our little one was a baby girl or a baby boy. Jim and I will find out together when we open the envelope on Sunday. Ahhh ... I swear the envelope follows me wherever I go, wanting me to open it! I know it will be really special to open it together, so that's what is giving me such will power to just wait it out.

Baby Johnson is healthy, has a strong heartbeat, and was moving around like crazy. Carol went with me again, this time with her new baby Chloe (2 weeks old today). It's nice to have someone there for me, to share in such a miracle. If it can't be my husband, at least it's my best friend!

Baby was moving around a lot at first, but then decided to be uncooperative. Still, we were able to get good pictures. It was really neat to see EVERYTHING. Literally, the ultrasound tech looked at every nook and cranny. It was really neat to see parts of the brain, the ventricles of the heart, and of course legs, arms, toes, and fingers. Everything was measuring right at 18 weeks, 1 day .... except arms were measuring around 17 weeks, 3 days... and the legs were measuring around 19 weeks!! So tall already little Baby!!! :) I guess it's about now where the baby starts to take on genetic traits.

I can't wait to share how our special day goes on Sunday. I'll post as soon as we know!

Dear Baby Sweet Potato...

2009-04-01T13:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby,

You are becoming more and more mobile each day and spend a lot of your time yawning, hiccuping, twisting, kicking, punching, sucking, and swallowing. Since you are getting bigger, Mommy should be able to feel your movements soon. You are more sensitive to the outside world now and those little ears of yours can hear!! Soon enough you will get used to familiar sounds like my heartbeat, familiar voices, blood rushing through the umbilical cord, and other daily routine sounds. If you hear a loud sound, you may become startled so I will be careful as to not scare you!!

I think with each day that passes it's more noticeable that I'm pregnant. I'm popping out and it's been fun to wear some new clothes... any excuse to shop is a good one! I'm feeling a lot better these days... more energy and not as much morning sickness (although it's still there sometimes). I've been having heartburn the last three days straight and it's driving me nuts, but it sure beats getting sick everyday!!

I am so excited to see you tomorrow at our 18 week appointment. It will be a big change from the last time I saw you. I will do my best to not look, so I can hold off and find out if you are a little boy or a little girl with Daddy. We are really looking forward to Sunday to share in that special joy! I am flying to Baltimore this Saturday to spend a whole week with your Daddy, both sets of your grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins! It will be a lot of fun and I'm sure full of excitement.

See you tomorrow little one... please cooperate for Dr. Towsley!!

Love,

Mommy

Any last minute thoughts... what do you think? Girl? Boy?

Dear Baby Onion...

2009-03-25T17:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby,

Things are still changing rapidly at 17 weeks. Your skeleton is changing from soft cartilage to bone and the umbilical cord is growing stronger and thicker. Your eyes are facing more forward and your ears are almost in their final position. You are becoming quite the flexible baby, with the ability to move your head, mouth, lips, arms, wrists, hands, legs, feet, and toes!

I have finally gotten rid of the cold that had me feeling pretty yucky last week. Hopefully it stays away! I have been waiting to feel you move and last week I experienced some weird feelings in my lower abdomen, especially when I would cough. I asked the nurse if I should be concerned because sometimes it was more of a painful sensation. She said I could be feeling you move around, that it was nothing to worry about.... we'll see!

One of my sweet students brought in some gifts for you yesterday. She gave you some outfits, a cute little chick toy, and a Pooh backpack for Mommy. It was really special that she thought of you! We also received an unexpected gift today from Carol's parents..... your stroller and car seat!!! It was their way of saying thank you since they have been staying at our house while visiting Florida. It was such a thoughtful and kind gesture, even though they went above and beyond. It was such a surprise!!!!

Keep growing strong and healthy little one.... I'll see you next week!

Love,

Mommy

Here is a picture of the stroller travel system. It was exactly the one I wanted.... and I am in LOVE with it!!! It is orange, beige, and white. The inside has orange polka dots with white outlines. SO CUTE!

Spreading the news...

2009-03-23T16:52:00.000-07:00

For the past month or so, I have been extremely anxious to share our special news with my students. I wasn't sure when the right time would be or how long I should wait, but either way I figured the time would just "feel" right. That feeling came today and I was super excited to share the exciting news with my class.

A while ago, I created a math worksheet that not only would help my kids with multiplication and division, but would have a riddle to go along with the fun. As they found answers to these problems, they had to match a letter with the answers at the bottom to solve a riddle that if correct would read, "Mrs. Johnson is having a baby!!" Having that ready and in a special place, I decided to pull it out today after a draining day of teaching expanded form for decimals greater than one. I told my kids this was just a practice sheet so we can get better for our fourth grade fact drills and there would be a fun message at the end. I told them it was kind of "good gossip" and that I bet they would be really excited to be the first one done and the first one to know the gossip that only some people at Gocio knew. Well they totally bought into it and I have never seen them race to finish so fast!! Jasmine was the first to finish and very excited to spread the word. It was truly a special moment and the reaction that I received was wonderful!

Here are just a few of the reactions from my lovely bunch:

- "Mrs. Johnson, I don't get it... you aren't fat!"

- "Is it a boy? Is it a girl? Can WE name it?!?!"

- "Will the baby come and play with us at school?"

And this one happens to be my favorite.....

- "Does Mr. Johnson know about this?!"

The kids responded exactly how I had hoped... they truly are loving kids. As we hugged and high-fived goodbye today, one student rubbed my stomach. I didn't feel so comfortable with this, so I quickly told the class that when they hug me, they are also hugging the baby, that no rubs were needed! Also, another little girl looked right at my stomach and said "Bye, Baby." Awww no matter how some kids can really push your buttons and test your limits, they are full of love, just waiting to be shared! :)

Dear Baby Avocado...

2009-03-18T17:18:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby,

I'm not sure how an avocado is bigger than an orange, maybe lengthwise? Hmmm. You are about 4.6 inches and 3.5 ounces at 16 weeks. You are still growing so fast week by week! Tiny bones are now forming in your ears so you will be able to hear my voice. Now when I talk to you, I will feel like you are listening to Mommy! Eyebrows, lashes, and hair are starting to fill in and your little toenails may even be forming.

Mommy is starting to get a little bump... I have a feeling that in the next few weeks, I am going to "pop" and it will become more noticeable for others to know I'm pregnant. We'll see! The last few days haven't been the greatest. On Sunday, I wasn't able to keep any food down except for chicken noodle soup and ginger ale. Then Monday, I started getting a bad cough, along with other cold-like symptoms. Still today, I don't feel my best. I'm hanging in there though and am trying to eat some good food for you. I've been feeling these twinges or little pains in my sides when I cough sometimes. I asked the nurse if I should be concerned and she said I was probably just feeling you! I'm not sure if I really have been, but it's neat to think that it is the time for that to be starting!! :) My newest pregnancy symptom that I am not a fan of, second to acne.... is nose bleeds! YUCK!

I'm going to go and get some rest now. I want to get better for you, I'm sorry I'm coughing so much... I hope I'm not interrupting one of your naps! Take care little one and Mommy will be better for you soon!

Love,

Mommy

Let's talk pregnancy dreams...

2009-03-16T17:19:00.000-07:00

Wow... pregnancy dreams are crazy, vivid, and sometimes make no sense! One of these crazy dreams that still stands out happened about two weeks ago. I was driving my car on a airport runway and at the time, this didn't even seem out of the ordinary. Then, all of a sudden a space shuttle took off right in front of me. This thing was so close to my car that I could literally feel the heat and the wind from it!! It was the weirdest and scariest dream because it felt like it was really happening. So what does this dream mean? I don't know.... that I'm following my dreams, watching my dreams take off, my life is blasting off to a new chapter? Who knows, but I do know that it was quite interesting!

Another crazy dream that I had this weekend woke me up a bit startled. I'm not sure where I was or what I was doing, but I remember I had little drops of blood coming from my pores on my skin. It was random... around my ankles, knees, on my arms. Now this was only enough blood to create little droplets so it wasn't some kind of gory nightmare. So noticing this, I went to my doctor and he said it was all a part of pregnancy... just to keep tissues with me at all times. Hmmm, definitely not sure about this one!

I have so many dreams, but the last one I'll share made me wonder if I'm having a baby girl. It was kind of a fast forward kind of dream because my neighbors daughter was in it, but she was a little girl instead of a tiny baby. Well, I guess she was here playing with our little one in our nursery. However, the room was overwhelming pink. Pink walls, pink bedding, pink toys.... is it a girl?!

Like I said... pregnancy dreams are crazy, vivid, and sometimes make no sense!

Sweet Dreams!

Dear Baby Orange...

2009-03-11T17:53:00.000-07:00

Dear Baby,

I can't believe how fast you are growing! You are now about 4 inches in length and weigh about 2.5 ounces. Your legs are growing longer than your arms and you are able to move all joints and limbs. Your eyelids are still fused shut to protect you but you are able to recognize light without them being open. You have also formed taste buds this week, so I promise I'll feed you tasty food!

Since moving into the second trimester, I have been feeling better overall. Energy is starting to come back and feeling nauseated comes and goes. Some days, I feel perfectly great.. others, symptoms come back and remind me of your wonderful existence! Some days, like this morning, there is no chance to even get to food before I can sense that feeling coming on..... and over the toilet I go. YUCK!

So I don't think I'm necessarily starting to show, although I'm noticing changes with my tummy. It's not as flat as it used to be and there seems to be a bigger bulge hanging over my regular pants. Yesterday was the first time I wore maternity pants and I was so comfortable all day! No muffin top, just round belly!!!

I'm really looking forward to seeing your Daddy this weekend... and I know he is looking forward to seeing "us." It will be another special weekend of family time! :) Keep growing strong and healthy for us and keep wiggling around ... I will feel you soon enough, just keep trying to get my attention!

Love,

Mommy

Babies, babies, babies!

2009-03-08T17:18:00.000-07:00

It seems like everywhere I looked or went this weekend, there were babies and more babies! I loved it! On Saturday night, Jessi, Jamie, and I threw Carol a baby shower. It was a night full of fun... wearing our comfy pajamas, eating junk food (including pizza!) and sharing stories about pregnancies and babies, along with a lot of laughs. I heard a lot of interesting things .... some that make me more excited about the whole experience and others... well let's just say more realistic things that happen to our bodies as time changes!

Diaper Cake I made for Carol ... full of diapers and hidden goodies!

Today, Carol and I went shopping for last minute baby supplies for her little Chloe. She will be making her grand appearance in just 11 days! I can't believe how fast time has gone. Seems like just yesterday, we were sitting at Rico's Pizzeria when she spilled the news. I am so anxious to meet the new addition to the Piersoll family! On our adventures today, I couldn't turn this baby outfit down. It's for a boy... but if we have a little girl, she will wear it and wear a red bow! It's very fitting and I think Daddy will really like it. :)

So cute... isn't it?!

Dear Baby Lemon...

2009-03-04T16:55:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

We have made it to the second trimester! What a HUGE milestone and let me tell you... it feels so great! At fourteen weeks, you can now squint, frown, grimace, suck your thumb, and wiggle your toes. Your liver, kidneys and spleen are continuing to develop and although it's not as cute as toe wiggling, you are making urine and breathing amniotic fluid. You are also starting to develop lanugo, which is a light covering of hair all over your body. This coating of hair will keep your little body warm.

I haven't felt you move yet since you are only the size of a lemon, but you are punching and kicking away and much more flexible and active than the week before. In the next few weeks, maybe I'll start to feel little flutters. How exciting!

Luckily, I have started to feel better this past week. Still tired by 8, but not feeling as queasy throughout the day and not getting sick in the morning (as often). Thank you Baby!! I'm still wanting pizza, pizza, and more pizza! I know I need to eat healthier and I have started to do that for you. However, I did make homemade pizza tonight.... BUT I put ground beef on top. At least I'm eating more red meat per doctors orders! HA! I am snacking on fruit throughout the day and it's been so tasty.

Today, a friend at work came up to me and put her hand on my belly. She was just checking for a bump... there is a little one, but I have a feeling it's going to be much more noticeable in just a few weeks. I'm anxious and excited for everyone to know I'm having a baby!! I'm now really looking forward to feeling you move around... I can't even imagine the thrill that will give me the first time I feel a kick or a punch. Come on baby!!! Keep growing strong and healthy little one. Mommy and Daddy love you so much.

Love,

Mommy

Oh yeah... my new ticker changes (the start of a new week) are on Wednesdays now! I didn't realize I was late by a day, since Dr. Towsley moved my due date up a day. So now I will be looking forward to writing letters on Wednesdays instead. :)

Upcoming Appointments...

2009-02-28T05:08:00.000-08:00

I am so excited about our upcoming appointments! My next appointment is March 24, which will be a quick check-up. Basically we will listen for the heartbeat again and redraw blood for the second part of the prenatal screening. This testing checks for possible birth defects, such as down syndrome, which luckily the first part of the screening looked wonderful. Then just a week later, on April 2, we will find out the sex of our little one!! I am counting down the days already! Since Jim will be in Baltimore getting ready for Opening Day, he won't be able to go to this appointment. However, Dr. Towsley and I have a plan in place..... it's a good one! Dr. Towsley will use a DVD to record the whole ultrasound from that day. When he looks for the money shot, I'll just turn my head so I can't see that day. Once he knows what the sex is, he'll put it in an envelope for safe keeping. It's going to be hard to wait to open that envelope and will require a lot of strength, but I'll only have to wait for two days. I will be heading up to Baltimore on April 4 for a week. Yay for perfect Spring Break timing!

It will be so special to watch the DVD with Jim and then peek inside the envelope. At least this way we will be able to find out such exciting news at the same time! Way to go Dr. Towsley... just one more reason that I love this doctor.

We have a lot to look forward to and I love every minute of it!

Dear Baby Peach...

2009-02-26T18:06:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

I keep staring at your ultrasound pictures from Tuesday and simply can't get over the fact that I'm bringing a new life into this world. It is truly a miracle. Today we arrive at 13 weeks, where you are the size of a peach. You are forming sockets for all of your teeth and vocal cords, even though they are non-functioning right now. Your intestines are in the process of moving from the umbilical cord to your tummy, which makes things much more convenient. Fingerprints have even formed on your tiny fingertips. I think you are growing to be tall already too. The ultrasound tech told me that you were already so long!!! She hasn't seen your Daddy before... but if she did, she would know where that is coming from.

I was starting to feel better, but it's still day to day. Most days start off shaky but get much better by mid-morning. I am trying to get more iron in my diet for you. I'm eating more nuts, raisins, and green veggies. Hopefully that will be enough for now until I feel like I can eat red meat again.

I can't wait to start feeling you move and flutter about. I'm anxious to know how that feels! Keep growing strong little peach!

Love,

Mommy

Our baby is so cute!

2009-02-24T15:58:00.000-08:00

I feel so blessed to be almost 13 weeks. Today was my doctor's appointment for the first part of the prenatal screening process. Carol went along with me since Jim couldn't be here for the appointment. I was glad to have her tag along since I tense up a bit before these appointments. Hopefully after today, I can just be excited!

Everything looked great. Our little baby has changed so much and looks so cute just relaxing away. It seemed to be nap time today, so we didn't see too many flips or kicks. The ultrasound tech had me cough to try to make the baby move a bit, but my coughs were too weak I guess. I didn't want to cough too hard... I was afraid I would lose my lunch! Carol pointed out that it looked like the baby had hiccups and sure enough it did seem that way. Baby would move up a bit and then fall, three seconds later, move up.. then fall. It went on for a minute or so. So cute!

During the ultrasound, the nasal bone was found and measured, along with the back of the neck. These measurements help the doctors know the chances of the baby being born with Downs Syndrome. All of the measurements looked great and the baby looks healthy!

As for me, Dr. Towsley said I was borderline anemic and "it wouldn't hurt to eat some steak." I don't think he meant the cheese steak sub I had tonight for dinner. Oops!! I need to start eating a bit more meat, hopefully my appetite for that will change soon. Everything else checked out good with all my bloodwork from last time. My thyroid looks great and Dr. Towsley said... "you must be staying off the crack." Why yes, I believe so. I like how he jokes around and makes himself very easy and comfortable to be around.

Ok, here's what you have really been waiting for. Introducing Baby Johnson at 13 weeks ... might I add, our baby is such a cutie already!

Nap time... ahh there is plenty of room to get comfy in here!

Time to flip around ... but still sleep.

Baby is showing off a perfect spinal cord here.

I love getting mail... especially like this :)

2009-02-22T16:06:00.001-08:00

I just wanted to share what I got in the mail on Friday from my niece, Emily. It's so sweet and thoughtful!!! She is already in love with her baby "lime" cousin. Em will be a great helper when the little one arrives! :)

Dear Baby Plum...

2009-02-19T13:28:00.001-08:00

Dear Baby,

I wish I could say that we are in the second trimester at 12 weeks today, but I've read so many different dates as to when it officially starts. 12 weeks, 13 weeks 3 days, 14 weeks... which one?! I'm going to go with the middle, 13 weeks. Either way, I feel like 12 weeks marks a huge milestone for us and I am thrilled to be this pregnant!

I get so excited for Thursdays to roll around so I can find out what you are up to. You have now grown to be about 2.5 inches. I can't feel you move around yet, but you are opening and closing your mouth, moving your fingers and toes, and kicking all around. This week you are developing reflexes and your skin is very sensitive (much like Mommy's right now)! Your brain is fully formed allowing you to feel pain and suck your thumb. Tiny eyelids cover your eyes and will stay shut until the seventh month to protect you... you are so delicate! If I haven't said it already, which I know I have a million times... you amaze me!

I'm starting to feel a little better and haven't gotten sick in a few days. Please, please, please stay away! I've had some headaches lately, I think it's a way to remind me to eat healthier for you. Still wanting pizza. Everyday. My pants are starting to get a bit snug.... but I haven't gained any weight in two weeks. I guess I'm just stretching a bit to make your home more comfortable.

Keep growing strong and healthy little baby. I'm off to eat (take a guess ... yes, pizza!) with the Piersoll family! :)

Love,

Mommy

Dear Baby Lime...

2009-02-13T13:41:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

I'm a day late with writing your 11 week letter. I wanted to spend time with Daddy last night since he had to leave this morning for Spring Training. You are still growing so fast with lots of new things taking place. Your fingernails are forming, intestines are developing, and all vital organs are up and running! I can't believe that being the size of a large lime, all this is happening!!

I'm still feeling the symptoms of the first trimester ... exhaustion, nausea, vomiting, food cravings and aversions, and my skin is not what it used to be. In just a short time, I will be entering the second trimester and hopefully some of these symptoms will pass.

It was a hormonal day for me since your Daddy had to leave us. I have no idea how I can be so strong when I miss him so much. Of course he said bye to you too by rubbing my belly, which made me even more emotional. It only takes a few days though and I'm right back into my routine.

I am excited about my appointment in a few weeks. It will be here before I know it and I'll get to see you again. Loving you more each day.

Love,

Mommy

A lot changes in just a week and a half.......

2009-02-09T17:32:00.000-08:00

Today was a wonderful day! Started off shaky, but gets really good... just keep reading, I promise! I started off the morning feeling tired and got sick right before leaving for school. Talk about a case of the Mondays! Later in the morning, I realized that I was spotting yet again. Why me??? Today it was a bit different, not a lot there but definitely red in color. I called the doc and they said to come on in and they will listen for a heartbeat, but wouldn't be able to do an ultrasound. I was nervous to go in since I was warned that it may be too early to hear the heartbeat... then in that case, I would really freak out.

I saw a different doctor today since Dr. Towsley was at a different office. Dr. Hamel was very nice and wanted to put my mind at ease. I was in shock when I saw her roll the ultrasound machine in, since I was told she was unable to do a scan today. God bless her!!

Sure enough, there was our Baby, heart beating away, and legs kicking all around. Dr. Hamel said the heart was beating at a great rate and I was truly amazed to see how much has changed it just a week and a half. When Jim and I had our last ultrasound, our little Baby must have been napping, but today the little one was quite active. I still find it to be such a miracle that this is all happening in my body. Amazing.

So.... crazy day, but all in all, things are PERFECT. I'm going to bed soon to catch up on some sleep and get ready for Tuesday. I'll post back on Thursday!

Dear Baby Prune...

2009-02-05T17:21:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

I'm not sure why at 10 weeks you are being compared to a prune, but that's what they say. I've also heard you are the size of a walnut or small strawberry. I will think of you as my little strawberry this upcoming week, instead of some shriveled up prune!! Your bones and cartilage are starting to form and vital organs are beginning to function this week... you are making major progress little one! I was happy to hear that your fingers and toes have separated and are no longer webbed and your tail has disappeared. Wow, you truly are amazing... in every way.

Mommy hasn't been feeling so well. I think morning sickness has come full force, but will hopefully only last another few weeks. It is starting to get really hard to get out of bed and get motivated in the mornings, especially when feeling so sick. Last night I couldn't figure out what I wanted to eat so I sent Daddy to Subway to get me a Cold Cut sub. Wrong choice! I took about seven bites and that's as far as I got. The rest came back to visit. Ugh. Orange juice, Ovaltine and pizza are still high on my list of favorites right now. I will start feeling better soon, don't worry about me... you keep getting comfortable and make yourself at home!

I'm beginning to get very excited about you, since we are making such great milestones this time around. You are such a blessing and I'm praying to God every night to keep you strong and healthy.

Love,

Mommy

Dear Baby Olive...

2009-01-29T16:33:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

It was so great to see you again today! You had a strong heartbeat, moving so fast that Daddy said it looked like you were playing the cymbals. Dr. Towsley said everything looked great and that you even have four legs! Four legs?! That's what I said, "Four legs?"... and he obviously meant four limbs. It was too funny! At 9 weeks, you are truly beginning to look like a baby with basic physical structures in place and your facial features are looking more distinct. Since we were just checking on how things were progressing, we didn't use the high-tech ultrasound machine, but we still got a blurry picture of you from my cell phone.

This week has been quite the week. Morning sickness has taken over and I've been getting sick almost every morning and feeling sick again at night. This morning I couldn't even keep Raisin Bran down. Ugh! In just a few weeks, I won't be feeling like this anymore. Dr. Towsley told Daddy that the next time I want pizza to just say "Yes, dear..." I love his way of thinking and I hope your Daddy takes his advice. Give me a piece of pizza and nobody gets hurt!

Grandad Rowland helped Daddy put together your crib today. It's beautiful! We wanted to get the furniture ready for you since Daddy will be leaving soon to start another year of baseball. You are going to love his games! I will see you in just 4 weeks.... keep growing strong little Baby. We love you so much.

Love,

Mommy

Baby Johnson @ 9 weeks

How can I be so tired and hungry?

2009-01-25T15:37:00.001-08:00

I haven't quite figured out how I can be this tired and hungry... ALL the time! I'm usually in bed by 9, even on weekend nights... and even by 9 I can barely keep my eyes open. It's crazy!! It seems that I eat and feel full and then 20 minutes later, I'm starving again. That needs to stop before I gain a lot of weight in just the first trimester!

Baby has been wanting pizza for about a week now... maybe it's really just me that wants pizza but it feels better to say that Baby wants it! Jim is on his diet before the season starts up, so pizza is NOT on his menu. However, this week I will be getting pizza... with or without Jim.

Everything else is going well... just tired and hungry. Can't wait to see our little Baby on Thursday... it can't get here any quicker.

Dear Baby Raspberry...

2009-01-22T14:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

I am officially the most pregnant I have ever been!! Here we are at 8 weeks and you are growing so fast. I can't feel it yet, but you are probably beginning to move those little arms, legs, and (slightly) webbed fingers and toes like crazy! You are forming little ears and the tip of your nose is taking shape. It's so amazing to think of all that is taking place with your body right now.

Little One, you have made Mommy have some new symptoms this week. I have been feeling up and down throughout the week. I have had some cramping the past few days, but that is only because my uterus is changing from the size of a fist to the size of a grapefruit (for right now). Yikes!! I sure am glad you are getting comfy in your new home!! Earlier in the week, I was throwing up in the morning and wasn't in the mood to eat anything. Now just a few days later, I'm still feeling nauseated throughout the day but eating nonstop. I have had some brown spotting similar to last week, which worried me at first. I called Dr. Towsley right away, hoping he would say to come in for an ultrasound. That's exactly the answer I got, along with some other advice, and after all that decided to just wait it out. Believe it or not, spotting happens more than most people know.

I had a breakdown yesterday because I was scared out of my mind that something was going to happen to you. I got myself together and realized that everything is okay. I will see you a week from today and get the reassurance that I need.

Daddy and I can't wait to see you again... I wish I could see you everyday! Keep growing strong for us little Baby ... I keep thinking you truly are our Christmas Miracle.

Love,

Mommy

Dear Baby Blueberry...

2009-01-15T16:54:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

You have made your Daddy and me really happy this week. Seeing you the other day for the very first time was so amazing! Your little heart is fluttering away and you are full of life. I didn't want to stop looking at you, even though you are so tiny and barely looking like a baby. (Don't worry, you will soon... we are only at 7 weeks!)

Your brain will be growing fast during this upcoming week, generating 100 new cells every minute. Arms and legs are emerging and you are growing a permanent pair of kidneys. Your eyes are beginning to get pigment, nose is developing, and the beginning of a face can be seen. Wow, so many changes little one!

I have a great doctor who is really looking out for you. He's taking good care of me and says all my symptoms are good ones to have. Nausea lasts all day but when I eat a small snack it makes me feel better. I'm tired out a lot and Daddy asks why? I have to remind him that you are quickly growing inside me and taking some of my energy away from me. But that's okay, keep it up little Baby. Daddy and I get to go back for another ultrasound in just two weeks. We are looking forward to seeing you again and so soon. I'm loving you more and more each day, keep growing strong for us!

Love,

Mommy

Great, BIG, news!!!

2009-01-13T17:55:00.000-08:00

For the past few weeks, Jim and I have been very anxious for this day to come. We had our first ultrasound to see our little Baby. Today started off kind of rough, not feeling so good and then noticed that I was spotting a bit. It scared me, worried me, and made me overanalyze everything because this is how it started last time. I called Jim and he reassured me that the doctor said that this can sometimes be normal.

We waited what seemed like forever in the waiting room full of other cute pregnant ladies. Once we got back to our room, I was able to calm my nerves down a bit. In just a few minutes, Jim and I were looking at our Baby for the very first time! The doctor said everything looked great and I was measuring almost right on. Seeing the heartbeat was amazing and made everything feel real...finally. We don't know why I was spotting, but we are thrilled that everything looked great. Dr. Towsley said that statistics show that after seeing the heartbeat, the chances of a miscarriage decreases to 1 in 10. (90% chance of everything going well) That is much better than 1 and 4!!

Jim and I go back for our nine week appointment January 29th. Only 2 weeks until we get to see our little Gummi Bear again!! (Dr. Towsley said now and in the next few weeks, the baby will look like this...) This is officially the most pregnant I have been! YAY for milestones!!

Dear Baby Sweet Pea...

2009-01-08T16:48:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

Here we are at Week 6! We are really looking forward to seeing you for the first time on Tuesday. It will be such a special day for your Daddy and me. You are doing a lot of growing and will continue to change quite a bit this week. I can't believe that being so small you are starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks, and chin! Your little hands and feet are still webbed but could start to wiggle by the end of the week. Your heart has begun to beat and hopefully is beating twice as fast as Mommy's... that's a good sign! Blood is starting to circulate and you are developing into quite the little baby.

I have been very tired but have given myself the chance to relax, which I think is best right now. The last few days I have been nauseated and full of heartburn but will keep eating and drinking lots of water. That sometimes helps! I am loving every minute of being pregnant and am excited for each new day to come!

Love,

Mommy

P.S. This is where Daddy wanted us to park at Babies 'R' Us the other night. He's a funny one!

Happy New Year!

2009-01-05T17:08:00.000-08:00

I'm so excited for 2009 to begin and I anticipate the wonderful changes that will be happening throughout the year. After Jim bought the Baby a few onesies, I couldn't resist myself. I was at the mall yesterday and Gymboree was having a HUGE sale! I only bought two onesies, one has little puppies on it and the other is for Halloween. We won't buy anything else for a while, but couldn't pass up a few outfits.

Today was my first day back to school and it was tiring. I'm exhausted and will be going to bed very soon. Today I felt fine throughout most of the day, but started to feel kinda icky after I ate dinner. Headache and a nauseous feeling that won't go away. I'll take it though, it's a great reminder of what's going on in my body right now!

Dear Baby Appleseed...

2009-01-01T19:03:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

You are five weeks old and the size of an appleseed, still so tiny! You are starting to develop major organs (heart, kidney, liver, and stomach) and systems (nervous, circulatory, and digestive). Wow, you are busy! I'm still feeling a bit nauseous at times, but not as much. I've been getting tired very easily and will need to start taking naps here and there. Daddy and Pop Pop Johnson have been busy getting your nursery painted and redone. It looks beautiful and is ready for us to fill with the things you will need. Pop Pop and Nana Johnson bought you your first teddy bear that you will love. Daddy also made his first big purchase for you..... some cute outfits that are hanging in your closet.

So adorable!!!

We are so excited to be starting this journey with you. Daddy and I will see you in less than 2 weeks when I get my first ultrasound. Keep growing strong little baby!

Love,

Mommy

2008-12-30T19:40:00.000-08:00

So far things are looking good!!! I went in for my blood redraw yesterday and got my HCG results from the doctor. Before I even got the results, this is how it all unfolded.....

Where it all started... Jim's parents, Jim and I are unloading from the truck to head into Target for the after Christmas clearance. The nurse from my doctor's office called and said, "I'm not sure why, I don't have your chart in front of me, but Dr. Towsley wants you to come in today for a redraw. He says your numbers are only at 62." Well, I immediately freak out and think something is wrong because that number sounds super low for the second blood draw. The whole gang then travels to my doctors office, where I head right in thinking the worst.

I get into this little room, where I have spent A LOT of time getting blood work done since the miscarriage and I start to cry. The nurse was like, "It's okay... have you been spotting? Anything out of the ordinary?" This hit me like a ton of bricks. I didn't even know what in the world was going on. I was fine! Come to find out, the nurse simply FORGOT that I had already gone to Quest that morning. They had the results and numbers were great! Then a flood of happy tears came over me... it was all too crazy!

My HCG levels were 62 on Friday and 318 on Monday. These numbers are supposed to double every 48-72 hours, so we are looking good so far!! Dr. Towsley seemed very happy with these numbers. YAY! I scheduled my first appointment on January 13, which will put me at close to 7 weeks. We should be able to see a heartbeat then so we are looking forward to our first ultrasound. It will be so different this time around.

So what started off as quite a scare turned into some great news... and we still made it to the Target Clearance Sale!

Dear Baby Poppyseed.....

2008-12-27T12:36:00.000-08:00

Dear Baby,

Right now you are just the size of a poppyseed and have made your home a safe place to be for the next nine months. Not much is going on right now, but a lot will be changing when next week rolls around. You have already made Mommy get sick a little and feel nauseous at random times. I'm drinking a lot of water for you and trying to eat a bit healthier. Your Daddy and I are so happy that you are our little Christmas Miracle. We love you!

Love,

Mommy

Still can't believe it...

2008-12-27T06:52:00.000-08:00

I am still in shock that I am actually again!! After the miscarriage, my doctor told me to call back right away when we become pregnant again. So I called first thing yesterday morning hoping that they would be open because of the holidays. Sure enough they were and the nurse was so excited and happy for us! I went to Quest yesterday morning for blood work and will go again on Monday for a redraw. That way the doctor can compare betas (HCG) and progesterone levels. We will go from there and set up our first appointment, which is likely to fall within the next two weeks! YAY!!!!!

Last night Jim and I went to the outlet mall and couldn't pass up Carter's. We went in and looked at all the cute newborn outfits. We both must have been smiling from ear to ear the whole time. It was fun but we didn't buy anything yet, only clothes for Carol's baby on the way.

Keep checking back... Soon I will start posting how big the baby is and what is happening to the baby and me each week!

Miracles do happen...

2008-12-25T11:52:00.000-08:00

It all started about a week ago when I started to feel kinda icky. I was feeling nauseous off and on, had minor cramping, and a bit of dizziness. All of these symptoms were all too familiar and I kept thinking, "Could this be it?" I didn't want to get my hopes up, but I prayed every night and was hoping for a Christmas Miracle. So, Jim and I decided we would test on Christmas morning, if my period hadn't shown up yet.

So Christmas Eve, I was up bright and early not feeling too great. Then the feeling passed within an hour and I really started to think about maybe being pregnant. So here we are Christmas Day, and I woke up around 2 am, feeling sick.... went back to bed... woke up at 4 am, ugh.. still feeling sick.... finally at 7 am, I woke up and took a test. TWO LINES!!!!!! Faint lines, but it's still early.... and any two lines, whether light or dark is a BEAUTIFUL thing!!

It took me a minute for it to sink in, so I continued to sit on the toilet and enjoyed a few silent tears of happiness. I then walked into the bedroom and woke Jim up to tell him our good news. It was so exciting... even though Jim had to be up so early!

I truly believe in miracles and my prayers were answered. Christmas 2008 will never be forgotten since we got the best gift anyone could wish for... our Christmas Miracle!

The waiting game starts today!

2008-12-14T07:26:00.000-08:00

This cycle I decided to try OPK's (ovulation predictor kit). My doctor told me that my cycles may vary each month after my miscarriage and this would make it difficult to really pinpoint the day I ovulate. So... I decided to not only pay close attention to my body signs but to try OPK's. I was happy to see that I got a positive OPK on Friday, which meant I would probably ovulate on Saturday. This was actually pretty normal for me I think. Yesterday, I had some cramping so that verified it even more! We are officially now just playing the waiting game and hopefully we will have our BFP this cycle!! Say your prayers for us!

My Christmas Wish

2008-12-01T16:35:00.000-08:00

I found this cute blinkie today. For those of you that aren't up to date with pregnancy lingo, BFP stands for BIG FAT PREGNANT!

On Thanksgiving Day, AF made her appearance after only 27 days. I was secretly wishing she stayed away and I would later find out I was pregnant. Oh well.... I am lucky I had a "normal" cycle after my miscarriage. There are A LOT of women who wait several weeks before any sign of their period.

I am praying every night that we have good luck this cycle and have a Christmas BFP to celebrate with our family and friends!

In the clear.. and ready to go!

2008-11-22T19:29:00.000-08:00

Yay for more good news! The nurse called on Friday with my last series of blood results. My hormone levels are in the negatives after almost 4 weeks. With levels like this, my body has found it's way back to how it was before getting pregnant. (other than the few pounds I put on from eating everything in sight!) It's hard to believe it's already been almost 4 weeks since I miscarried. Jim and I are excited to move forward and hopefully have baby news soon! :)

I miss you little baby ...

2008-11-19T05:58:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was a pretty good day, if you don't count the phantom pregnancy symptoms or a waiting room full of cute little pregnant ladies!

It all started when I brushed my teeth before school and I started to gag. UGH... it continues. All morning, I felt like I needed to throw up and kept going into the bathroom just in case it really happened. This was all way too familiar and it made me sad. I know they are just symptoms of a stomach bug or something, but enough to remind me of what I miss. I never thought I would miss morning sickness!!! Then, at the doctors, I had to wait a long time in a waiting room full of cute pregnant women and didn't even get my blood drawn. Now I have to go back again today... but it's my last visit for the miscarriage. My next visit will be for a new little joy!

I miss you little baby.... and there isn't a second I don't think of you. God, please bless us with a healthy baby soon.

Had to come back ...

2008-11-15T06:03:00.000-08:00

With all that has happened in the last few weeks, we had some positive news from the doctor on Thursday! My hormone levels have dropped from 2,425 to 476... all the way to 18. So basically, my body has recovered from the miscarriage quickly and is ready to move onward!! It takes a lot longer for several women and I feel lucky to get through such a hard time a bit faster. There's not a day that I don't think about it, but at least we are on our way to more good news soon. :)

Today was supposed to be our first appointment...

2008-11-04T17:32:00.001-08:00

So today was the day we were anxiously waiting for... our first visit to the doctor. It was our first visit, however, not the visit we wanted. Last night, I knew something was wrong when I passed some tissue. At that moment, I knew in my heart that my body rejected my Baby. When I stop and think about it, this is a blessing because Mother Nature knew that something wasn't right with our Baby. Today, the ultrasound showed that I did have a natural miscarriage. The doctor seemed to think that our Baby stopped growing at about five weeks.

Our doctor is wonderful and I am so happy that I had friends refer me to him. He really helped us see the bright side of this sad time. We are lucky that we are able to conceive a child and will again, and soon!

Jim and I are also lucky to have such wonderful family and friends. It's great to know that we have a huge support system... and together we will get through our loss.

I'm going to take a break from the posts... but you will see me back on here SOON and I am looking forward to it! :)

Not the weekend I had expected ...

2008-11-03T05:36:00.000-08:00

On Saturday afternoon, Jim and I went to the emergency room. I had some light spotting that freaked me out, so I wanted to get checked out. My hormone levels were high, which was a good sign but the ultrasound measured me back at 5 weeks, 2 days, which could go either way. The doctor told us it was a "threatened miscarriage" but apparently they give every pregnant woman that diagnosis if there is any spotting involved.

Yesterday, I had more bleeding and cramps, so it was an emotional day for me. Tomorrow at our doctor's appointment, I will have another ultrasound done and of course more blood work. Hopefully those hormone levels go up!!! We really want this little Johnson Baby. Grow Baby grow!! Keep us in your prayers today and I'll keep everyone updated :)

Baby names ... already?!

2008-11-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

So while I was at work yesterday, Jim decided to create his own list of baby names. Not surprisingly, he had way more boy names than girl names.

Remember, this is HIS list....

Boy - Colton, Walter, Alexander, Ethan, Henrik, Reese, Parker, Micah, Nash, Maynard, Wade, Dean, Elliot, Wyatt

Girl - Abigail, Mika, Paige, June, Lily, Summer, Willow

Out of these names, there are a few that I do like.... Alexander, Reese, Parker, Micah, Wade, Elliot, Wyatt, Abigail, Paige, and Colton is growing on me.... However, we have said the name Nolan for a boy for soooo long and I love Nolan Alexander. Jim thinks it's too common now, but I still think it's a possibility... if it's a boy. Better than Maynard, Henrik, and Dean!?!?! What was he thinking?!

Together we came up with Jett... any other ideas out there?

Ready for Tuesday to be here....

2008-10-30T11:15:00.000-07:00

Finally... Tuesday is almost here! Jim and I have our first prenatal doctor's appointment. We should get to hear Baby's heartbeat and have an ultrasound done. It will feel so real to finally see our new addition to our family. This has been the longest countdown EVER.....

At about 8 weeks, give or take a few days, I'm still feeling okay. I have been exhausted by the end of each day and feeling worn down. I went to the gym on Monday and it felt good... I just need the motivation to go back. I bought a heart rate monitor so I can make sure I'm exercising safely. For the past few weeks I've been feeling nauseous, mostly in the afternoon. I usually just eat and feel a lot better. Disappointing news.... Baby does NOT like Chipotle. I will miss that!